The pressure to show up consistently has at some point in my life become scary to me. Perhaps it’s rooted in a fear of letting people down? Or maybe it’s the fact that I’ll have to show up despite whether I “feel like it” or not, and I don’t like that? I think I’ve done so many things that I felt like I “had to do” that I subconsciously started seeking ways to rebel— to do what I wanted to do instead of what I had to do…